The eclipse that f*cked my destiny

RUMI

This Sunday is the Virgo New Moon and it’s also a solar eclipse.  During eclipses the lunar nodes – also known as the Nodes of Destiny – are closely aligned with the Sun-Moon aspect.

Eclipses happen in 19 year cycles and set us on a path that can affect us for years.  The last Virgo Solar Eclipse was in September of 1996.

That one, if I can be completely honest, f*cked up my destiny.

I was 20 years old and a college student and had spent the summer in NYC studying acting at the prestigious Lee Strasberg Theatre.  My instructors were some of the best in the biz.  And they did not mess around.

I had been a working child actor and model since the age of 12 and always saw myself as an artist.  But that summer was incredibly painful.  It was intimidating, confusing and downright traumatic.  It made me question my purpose and ability to be creative.

That September, when the Fall semester of college began, I made a pact with myself that I would give up on my dream of being an actor.  I would focus 100% on my degree in International Business, graduate on time, get a normal job and have a normal life.

I threw in the towel.

Knowing what I know now, I can see why I made that decision.  The “low side” of Virgo is being highly self-critical.  Virgo wants sacrifice and purity but we can go too far in our quest for perfection.  Add to that the solar eclipse which can make us feel confused about our purpose and life direction.

That shift away from my creative fire took many years to unravel.  Only recently have I found myself once again inspired by life and dance with the Muse.

I’m now faced yet again with “do I have what it takes to make this dream real?”  And this time around I’m saying yes.  I’m devoted to mastery of my craft and as challenging as it may be at times, I’m committed.

Spend this weekend doing something you love because the energy of an eclipse leaves an imprint – a resonance – that lasts with us for weeks, possibly even years.  What habits or energetic space do you want more of in your life?

New Moons are always times to plant seeds and eclipses are like adding MiracleGrow to the soil.

Sunday’s solar eclipse, exact at 2:41am EDT, may see old wounds resurface for deep healing because the eclipse will be directly opposite Chiron, the soul healer.  This aspect also has a sense of “fighting for what’s right” and standing up for your beliefs.

The Nodes of Destiny will be on the Libra-Aries axis and are saying, when faced with a choice between “me first” and “balance”, choosing balance and working toward mutual agreement will be the pathway toward higher destiny.

This solar eclipse opens a vortex of massive shifts that will build toward the lunar eclipse “blood moon” on September 28.  This period can create deviations in our known path.  Eclipse periods are “non-linear evolution” so be open and take great care to follow your heart’s desire.  What you plant will grow.

 

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